I apologize that I have not written coherently for a long time.
I was like totally down and out for the count.
But I am now better!
Still sorta look like a raccoon but I feel SO much better.
I missed 3.5 days of work in one week.
That is how you DEFINITELY know I was not feeling well...
I don't miss work.
I like to hoard my vacation days cause they roll over.
I hate writing lesson plans.
I especially hate writing lesson plans when all my resources are at school and not with me.
But if they were with me, the sub would kind of be... well... for lack of better term... screwed.
I no longer need to write sub plans!
I AM SO EXCITED!
(I am sort of a work-a-holic).
I want more to do with my life than watch the office and sleep.
Cause that is about all I had the energy for.
Which is silly.
I don't like it.
I know I write a lot of sappy stuff on here.
I should apologize.
But I don't think I am going to.
I have always written my thoughts.
And I like looking back and reading the things I wrote.
Even the really silly twitterpated stuff.
You know I got to thinking today.
It is AMAZING how God has worked things out.
Looking back on the story...
There are so many ups and downs.
And through it all. God was in control.
I am talking about more than just the-male-whom-I-am-fond-of
I am talking about life in general.
I look at where I am now and...
It is impossible to NOT see God.
He has worked out things that have seemed impossible.
And I cannot thank him enough for all he has done.
For every blessing in my life.
(Even for my sweet/ornery boyfriend.)
Speaking of who...
He just melts me.
(Zac that is)
He says things that just make me feel so... wonderful.
We are going to the Ren Festival next weekend
(We are both so excited! 7 more days!)
And he was asking if it was okay if I get there early.
I said of course it is alright.
I asked him when he would want me there.
He replied with, "Now. Now's good"
And even though it was kind of a silly answer.
It made me feel so wanted.
And it is such a nice feeling to feel wanted/needed.
He also did this really cute thing..
I was being a turd.
Instead of getting visibly annoyed, he grabbed my face with both hands and informed me "I just love you SO much!" And kissed me.
And if that is not the sweetest thing you've ever read... Then you need to go sit in a field of butterflies until your heart of ice melts!
There are these tiny little inconsequential moments that mean the world to me.
These tiny moments that are glimpses into sheer...
When I say "perfect"...
I mean "My perfect."
And what that means is this:
I know Zac has flaws. He has and will make mistakes.
I acknowledge that he is not perfect in the dictionary definition.
But I accept and love every piece of him.
Imperfections and all.
Every goober thing about him.
Goodness knows I am flawed too.
He still loves me.
And you know what?
God brought him into my life.
God has worked things out in HIS timing.
Do I get impatient?
(With like EVERYTHING! I want a washer and dryer in my abode... and I would like it ASAP!)
Um. Yes. Very. (Read above comment about washer and dryer)
But I am SO glad that God has it in control.
If anyone should be in control.
He is SUCH a good planner.
(And he will provide me with a washer and dryer in his timing...)