Here is how I am feeling. (Watch video below)
It's parent teacher conference week.
Here is how I am feeling. (Watch video below)
On the bright side I get to see Zac in a few days...
I am sitting here in my empty classroom.
(I about had a heart attack though when someone upstairs walked over my room cause I didn't know anyone else was here.)
Just writing some quizzes, study guides, and sub notes for tomorrow.
And I cannot help it.
I am really nostalgic today.
Extra nostalgic today.
Three years ago.
I went on a blind date.
And with a different guy than planned too!
It's been a strange three years.
A lot of ups.
A lot of downs.
Basically just a roller-coaster of events.
But it is my favorite story.
Always has been my favorite story.
The whole thing.
From the start until today.
And keeps getting longer every day.
I love the twists and turns.
The way, even living it, kept you on the edge of your seat.
Made you cry.
Made you screech with happiness.
Made you giddy with dancing.
Made you sit under your covers wondering how things will work out
Made you smile.
Made you upset and angry (at the both of us)
Made your heart swell with unsolicited happiness
Made you go, "AWWW!!!"
There are dark parts.
There are light parts.
And there are some flat out confusing parts.
As events continue to unfold.
I am so excited to see what else God has in store for us.
How this story is going to go.
And I am SO glad that the-male-whom-I-am-fond-of is the one that is co-starring in this story with me.
Even in the rough parts.
There is no one I would rather adventure through life with.
As I tell people.
He is "my" human.
(And as my sassy mother put it, "as opposed to...?" And I responded with, "A pterodactyl." )
He is the one I can talk to when words are hard.
He is the one that I share my thoughts with.
He is the one that I can share worries with.
He is the one that I vent to school about.
He is the one that I bounce ideas off
He is the one that I dream with.
He is wonderful.
God has blessed me more than a sappy post can ever explain.
I promise that I really am trying to be as frugal with my sappiness as possible.
I sit here in amazement at how God has worked things out.
How God has shaped us over these 3 years.
How God has helped us grow over these 3 years.
How God has matured us over these 3 years.
I think we needed those 3 years to let God refine us.
During that time. The Fellow and I built up a friendship. We got to know each other.
And all that time.
God was working on our hearts.
God was working on our emotions.
God was working on our trust.
God was working on our faith.
God was working on us.
I look back.
And I see God.
And I see how God has changed me.
I see how God has taught me to control my temper.
I see how God has taught me to be patient and trust Him.
I see how God has taught me about love in so many ways. (not just the romantic kind. The Jesus kind.)
I see how God taught me to pray for those I was angry with.
ESPECIALLY when I didn't want to.
And from those prayers. God healed my heart. He smoothed my bitterness and he filled me with His peace and love.
It was a time of growth.
And that is how I am going to look at it.
These past three years have been so God filled.
These past three years have been so filled with growth.
How can I look back and NOT be amazed by what God has done?
How can I not brag on how God has moved and worked?
When I look at Zac... I can't help but feel this love for him that goes deeper than I am tall. (Like if my heart were a TARDIS)
Because I am reminded at God's grace, mercy, and his knack for working things out according to HIS plan.
(Also. Zac is pretty attractive if I do say so myself)
I love Zac for reasons of Zacness. But I also love Zac for reasons given by God and God alone.
I personally think, those God reasons are going to be the ones that last longer. Because people tend to change, whether they mean to or not. And if you can love them in that unconditional way that God loves us (even though frustrations might be present, cause we are human)... I think that is when love really lasts.
That is, in my opinion, when love lasts beyond the fairy tale stage, and into the forever stage. (the comfortable and accepting stage).
Granted I am 24.
I still have a lot to learn in my life.
I really really hope this was not too sappy... but I am in sorta of a sappy mood. (Don't tell anyone though. I have a reputation to uphold!)
A chocoholic, chronic writer who is obsessed with Snoopy and anything as such. She also can be found curled under a warm fluffy blanket, lesson planning, journalling, or blogging.