Its almost Christmas and I hope you are having a fabulous vacation! Remember, dont work too much and spend time with your family as much as possible! Eat lots of sugar and other delicious home cooked food!!!! Cuddle with your pets and sleep lots. Above all, have a very Merry Christmas!!!!
Have you ever tried to run away? I dont mean like from home... I am talking more like from yourself. Its pretty hard isnt it? I actually tried last night. I realized that its so hard because in order to drive around I had to be there! In fact I drove around for about three hours. I got super lost and then realized that I was by where I had grown up. So then I called a friend and he kinda helped me get back to my school. He also advised that next time I go driving like that, I just stick to one road! I am totally going to be taking that advice!!!!
Thats not the point of this though. The point of this is, when I was driving to get away from myself, there was someone else in the car with me. God. It was almost as if in running away from myself I was running towards him. And you know, he is a great listener. You can be yelling at him, and he will listen to you. One of my favorite verses is Jeremiah 29:12-14 "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord.."
Alot of people stop after Jeremiah 29:11.. but I think this part is my favorite. God does have a plan for us, but it nice to know that we can call on God and he will be there when the plan gets confusing. I love that God is ALWAYS there, and ALWAYS listening! He is so patient.So, if you are ever sick of stuff, or just want to talk to a fantastic listener, remember God is there and he loves to hear our stories!
If you have ever been thrift store shopping treat yourself with a chocolate covered pretzal, chocolate milk, or anything with chocolate in it!!!! I LOVE thrift store shopping!!! I know most people try to hide the fact that thrifting is so much fun. I dont know why, there is nothing shameful about it. It is just people being good stewards and saving money on things that they might not be able to afford full price! Its also fantastic for us college students!!!! I mean we can get nice and unique presents for people that I normally could not afford!!!
Like today! I got my mom (and I will probably borrow this too} This adorable purse and wallet set for four dollars!!!! I mean it is soooo nice! And my friend she got 100% cashmere for TWENTY BUCKS!!! TWENTY!!!!! Its is a really really nice sweater and I dont think it has even been worn!
Of course, when you go, you have to dig a little and look for brands. We saw a coach purse there and it was real. Dont walk in and look at the scary and hideous sweaters!!! Just be sure to look at all of the treasures around you and know that some of the treasures are hidden and thrift stores are like treasure hunting!!!!! Have fun and enjoy!!! If you have been thrifting before what is the best thing you have ever found
Its funny. You wait your whole life to finally be an adult.. unfortunatly you didnt know all of the strings attached.
I was so excited to be independent and on my own... but right now, all I want to do is go home. I miss my family and my dog. Dont get me wrong. I am staying with a wonderful family that has a yorkie too. And spending Chrismas with my grandma. But I want MY mom and dad. I want to give them hugs and go shopping and cook.... I just miss them. Alot. It feels weird not to be home this Christmas. I am insanely envious of all my friends who were talking about going home. I was happy and excited for them, but still envious! I have made great new friends so far, and get to see friends I normally dont get to see. I dont mean to complain. I hope each and everyone of you are having fun family and friends filled Christmas! And for those of you who are in my position. Now is the time to start new traditions and keep old ones. Oh! And take yourself to a dinner and a movie.. And mcdonalds doesnt count! Have a very Merry Christmas and eats lots and lots of chocolate and pie and turkey and ham... and just food in general!!!!! I would love to hear what your favorite tradition is and if you are starting a new what that new tradition is!!!!!!!!!!
Well, last night I pulled my second all nighter in a row... I would not ever suggest doing such a thing especially when work is on the line. There are two things everyone knows dont pull two all nighters, and only slightly less known is never bet a Sicilian when death is on the line! (okay lame I know.. but I am running on no sleep here... give me a break haha!} So, I did manage to find a place to stay!!! God is great in _providing!!!!!! And tomorrow I actually get to go to church cause work doesnt start until 5! I am quite excited. I am going to go to bed early. I am also quite excited for that as well.
Anyways... I dont even remember what i was going to write.... so... never mind. Have a great Christmas break!
Well Bob! Today is a big day indeed! [I'll say it is Suzie!] Today officially starts the finals olympics. The first event was Christian Theology and boy did Emilie whiz through that!!! [I could barely keep up!] Afterwards I noticed her working on her chemistry flash cards and as she was flying through those she was so exhausted she passed out on those ridiculously comfy couch in one of the halls. [She was so peaceful....] Today she still has her Chemistry final and then tomorrow is another study day for her where she gets to work on papers and math! I know she is getting jittery Bob [that she has Suze!] We will keep you posted as the day goes on!!!!
Do you ever get that feeling that you are alone. Even when all of your friends are around but you are alone. I mean, its like this. some people are just fantastic at putting others down or making that person feel crummy. Absoluty crummy. Its getting to the point where I am done talking. One can only wear a smile for so long and then they just want to scream. Its like what the heck did I ever do to you! Stop treating me like dirt! You are not my keeper you dont need to know EVERYTHING that is going on in my life! Its none of your business. Yes, I am slightly frustrated right now! And yes it is because I am ridiculously stressed out and I realize everyone is stressed. No need to remind me. Certain people keep teling me that everyone is going through the same thing. You know what I say to that! YOU DONT SAY THAT UNLESS YOU KNOW EVERYTHING EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH!!!!!! IF YOU DONT KNOW THAN SHUSH! I am tired of people giving me stupid advice. I realize they just want to help but it doesnt help. Not one nanosecond. I am not saying my problem is better or worse than yours. I am just saying its different. Different circumstances different situations. I am also tired of being being told sorry for things I am going through, for the fact I am not going home for christmas, for this and that they have NO control over! I am tired of being *awwwed* because someone feels bad. When someone asks me what i am doing for christmas I tell them because its polite not because I am fishing for pity. Gah. I am just annoyed right now..... Isnt that allowed!
So here I am. Sitting in Caribou doing my homework. No big deal right? Well, a) i need a break from homework cause my paper is going no where as of this moment. And b) I kinda want to write about stuff... just to get it out of my brain for a bit.
Humans are selfish. I mean really selfish. We are probably the most selfish beings on the planet. If something doesnt benefit us then we dont want it. Why is this? I mean seriously. How many times have you manipulated a situation so that you benefit from it. It might benefit the other person, but if it didnt benefit you in the beginning you changed it? I am not going to be a hypocrite here. I do this too. I admit it. I realized though that that isnt healthy. Because then slowly we will start to take advantage of things that are just simple acts of kindness.
And the other day I stood and held the door open for an elderly couple. I thought they were gonna fall over! They were so shocked that a young person would do that! What is up with that?!! Why has our generation gotten such a bad rep? Another time I had extra tickets to an Alvin Ailey concert so I was trying to give them away. I cannot even tell you how many times people were like "whats in it for you?" or "Whats the catch?" That was actually sorta upsetting! I mean all I wanted was to bless someone with free tickets. What has the world come to? Its just sad that when we as a young generation is looked down on for being bad rebellious, and manipulative, and just a terrible messed up generation. Have the older generations ever thought that if instead of putting us down with this rep that perhaps we would live up to that good rep. All the things I hear about our generation hurts. Its like, well this is what is expected of us... well.... guess thats what we are. People say things like, "And just think... this generation is going to be in charge one day... scary!" That is super hurtful!!!!!!! Just think, if the older generations took time to build us up, teach us, and not just doom us immediately we would probably shock them! We still can you know. We can prove that our generation is not what they think it is!!! We can show that we really are a decent, smart, hard working generation who refuses to live out stereotypes, that will set our own futures. I think the older generations are just scared we dont care. They are scared we will treat them badly. Lets show them that we do care about them. This might mean that both generations will have to compromise. Not just us, but them too. Not all generations can have everything they want. Its just sad that we have a bad reputation. and that the generation below is not even getting a chance at a good reputaion either! They are just getting a bad rep tagged on them without even getting any chances! Lets teach them that dont have to listen to those lives. Lets give them a chance. Lets show them that they are full of amazing potential. That they can change the world even if everyone looks down on them! I really hope as a teacher I can teach the kids that they are special and not to always believe everything adults tell them (as in things like they have a terrible rebellious generation because it doesnt HAVE to be that way!!!!)
Okay... I think I am done ranting now...
Finals week... that terrible week that haunts our nightmares (when we have time to sleep that is...}. For me, dear readers, they start this upcoming monday!!! And believe me I am petrified! I mean, break is so close and as break gets closer my motivation gets lower and lower.... However, there is something about going to a coffee shop
that helps boosts moral and motivation!!! Just the smell of the heavenly stuff makes everything just come into focus!!! And thats before you even take the first sip of whatever it is that you are drinking! Then you get your coffee and start drinking it. Then all of a sudden.... BAM! You are like. BRING IT ON ESSAYS!!! BRING! IT! ON!!!!! And then you can focus so much better! Its weird... I wonder what causes this...
Which do you prefer... Coffee or tea.
So, I did something super embarrassing last night... Like super embarrassing last night!
It all started last night at swing dance. Me and my friend Michelle decided that we needed a break from studying and we got all dressed up and headed of to Late Night Swing. When we got there I saw the guy that I was supposed to meet at Chilly Billy's (if you haven't read that one... just know he is pretty cute and nice). Now, I don't dress up too often to swing dance, so I was not surprised that people did not recognize me. :) So, There we were standing in line when I glanced over to see this boy walk past see me, and casually sit down on this couch that is there. I sorta smiled, but then pretended I didnt see him. Then, after I dropped off my coat I walked past him and then we said hi and talked a little. Then I went into the dance floor area. After dancing with a few other friends me and this guy danced! Then we danced some more... and talked alot... and danced some more... there might have been a little flirting. Then we danced this one dance. It was Michal Buble, and we were doing pretty good, and he tries to do spin me all fancy. And what do I do??? I nail him in the face with my elbow!! RIGHT IN THE JAW!!!! I start laughing (I didnt mean too) because I was embarrassed and got super nervous! He kept saying he was fine after me apologizing a ridiculous amount!! I felt so bad!! I was like... I would elbow him in his jaw!! Then he was like, see you next week! (as I was leaving) and I was like, "I don't know if I can make it..." and he smiled all cheesy and was like "well, if you dont come, that just means I get one less elbow to my jaw!" :)
What is the most embarrassing thing you have done in front/to your crush?
So here I am. Sitting in the downstairs computer lab doing "Homework." When as I am placing the next tile piece for the vicious round of scrabble I am in the middle of, I hear two guys talking. One of the guys was like "Dude, did they have DECA in Missouri?" And the other guy was like, "Yeah" So the first guy is telling this story. (I have no clue what it was about...) And I was thinking really really fast. I can not believe that in the midwestern (non-missouri) state that I am in, that there is another Missourian! So i am trying to get up the courage to tell him that I too occasionally reside in Missouri (basically only when I go home.) But I don't want them to think that I am super nosey because I... well, was eavesdropping after all!
So I finally get the courage to tell him that I too live there! And he was like "NO WAY!!! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE!!!" and i was like, "I KNOW RIGHT!!! ME TOO!!!!" So then we started talking about Missouri and where we were from and come to find out he knows both of the places that I have lived in, that I mentioned. It was super exciting! So now I don't feel so lonely and out of place-ish!
What is your favorite state?
So today in my awesome mall job, I met the sweetest old lady. She was a typical old lady with the sweater and snowy white hair. She also had an accent. She had to have been about eighty years old or so.
She was checking out and I was the cashier, so I told her the total and she pulled out two credit cards trying to decide which one to use. As she pulled out her credit cards a really old photo fell out of her wallet. It was a faded and slightly yellowed photo of a man dressed in some sort of uniform. I pointed out that she had dropped her photo and then asked if that was her husband. She smiled, both happy and sad, and said yes. She then told me that he had died last year. She picked up the picture and I saw that there was writing (in another language} on the back. (I am going to assume it was sweet message to her}. She smiled again at it and looked up at me and smiled and showed me the photo. She said that it was taken when they were still in Germany and that he had been in the marines there.
I couldnt help smiling! You could just tell that she had loved him til the end and beyond even that.
I want a husband that I will love like that. I am sure the two of them argued and made eachother cry and want to murder eachother, but they still loved eachother and stayed with eachother til death parted them. I want a husband that in seventy years from now, his photo from when we were young will fall out of my wallet and a young girl will ask me if that is my husband. Then i will smile sweetly at all of the memories him and I have had and then be able to tell her a little about me and him. And then hopefully inspire her to want a love filled marriage that lasts beyond a life time. <3
I also have super high expectations about my future husband! I want someone who can both make me laugh but also be able to be serious. I want someone who will be happy to travel the world with me! I would love someone who likes kids but doesnt neccesarily want them. And I love love love curly hair and green eyes. And he has to love Jesus with all his heart soul and mind. And... he also has to love me and all of my dramatic outbursts!
what is your dream marriage/guy/girl
So raise your hand is if you have ever worried! (Yes dear readers I am now typing one handed!}. Do you find worrying just as tiresome and annoying as I do....
If so keep reading, if not... well you can keep
So the other day I had a talk with a good friend of mine. We were talking about worry and such. Basically what was concluded from this meeting was if you let worry control you, nothing is going to seem good, you will never be able to not worry. I becomes addictive, and if you are always worrying that means you dont trust God. And lets face it, God has been doing this forever, so he can handle all of our problems! He has it taken care of. Why should we worry about things if God is handling them!!!!
He is such a wonderful God! What is something awesome that God has done for you!
A human who is addicted to Panda Express' Orange chicken. I enjoy writing and really enjoy playing Spyro and Ultimate Chicken Horse on the XBox.