it was a really good service about Hope.
I love going to church.
It's not a massive social place for me.
I just really like the sermons.
God also used me today.
He used my backstory.
And that made so many tears... worth it.
The best part about God using you, really using you..
Is you feel him so... intensely.
You are suddenly saying words and things you KNOW you personally are not brave enough to say on your own.
But you feel God next to you.. guiding you, and you can see God's peace flow onto whomever.
I love that about God.
He has your back when you are doing things that scares you.
To be completely honest, I had no idea what to say.
Then suddenly I just heard words come out of my mouth.
I felt this peace come upon me, and I think the person I was talking to felt it too. And God just really... amazed me today and he taught me so much today.
I wonder if that is how the prophets of old felt?
I wonder if they felt God like that.
I wonder how close they felt to God.
When I was little I was always jealous of people like Moses, Elijah, and Noah. They got to talk to God so directly and they heard him talk back. Just like you would hear someone sitting next to you. And as a kid, I wanted that. I wanted to be sitting on my couch and have a conversation with God, just like I would with my best friend.
I heard a pastor talk about how things got so noisy on Earth that we can't be like that anymore. But why? Why can't we quiet the noise down and just talk to God? Did you know that there was a guy in the bible (Enoch I think) who talked to God so much and God enjoyed it so much that Enoch blinked and realized he was no longer in his living room? God just beamed him to heaven to be with him. That is how much Enoch talked with God. When I was little, I would read that story over and over and over. And it just amazed me. Now please remember that this was my 8 year old theology here, I was just awestruck that God loved talking so much and enjoyed the conversation so much with Enoch that he just took him to heaven.
I loved that story. I loved talking when I was 8 and so I very excitedly started telling God everything. And by everything I do mean everything. I told him about games I played, and what I was sad about and mad about and dissappointed about and frustrated about. And the thing is, I still do. There is nothing I love more than just talking to God. About everything. When I want to talk to someone about something but I don't want to exhaust the topic, I turn to God. I tell him my hopes, and dreams. I tell him about events, even though I know he was there.
He is our dad. You know? He loves hearing about our day, just like real parents do. Sometimes I think he puts in little blessings because he knows we are gonna tell him excitedly about it. I could be wrong. I am no theology student. I am just a simple human being who loves talking to her God.
And he is so trustworthy too. You can tell him your deepest most innermost thoughts and never have to worry about him telling anyone.
What I most love about God is that you can talk to him about anything and everything. You can talk about stuff with him to the point that all your friends would roll their eyes and zone out, but God will listen.
So. Point of the story.
God is really really really awesome. And good. And awesome. Yay!