Anyways DO YOU SEE THOSE SPIRALS?! DO YOU?!
It's pretty... pretty INTENSE!!!
It's hitting me that everyone I looked up to is getting old, and that now I am the one that kids are looking up to.
There is a little boy in my student teaching class who has this crush on me. I mean, every day he comes in with this little impish grin on his face and tells me the most exciting news he can think of. He never asks the actual teacher anything, it is always me.
The little girls look up to me. They copy my hair and at least half have decided they want to become a teacher so they can teach science.
It's this crazy and weird feeling.
These children see me as an adult.
I am looking for big girl jobs.
I am having to make big girl decisions.
I am having to bite the bullet and do things I don't want to.
I even received flowers the other day at the school.
The kids LOVED smelling them!
I mean, I am pretty sure I turned red and all the older teachers were all, "Ah, to be young again."
And yeah it has its perks.
But it's so frustrating being young.
It really is.
Nothing is set.
Nothing is stable.
All I can do right now is dream.
And dream I shall do.
Until my dreams become reality.