I bet you all were reading it and waiting to hear the bells of Santa's Sleigh!
I really hope you all got to ride on the Polar Express that night! :)
I also hope you all had lovely Christmas'!!!
This is my reflective New Years Post. Just to warn you.
This year has been insane.
So much has happened in 12 months.
I realized I was in love, like truly in love for the first time in my life.
I also had the biggest heartbreak of my 22 years.
I made new friends and lost old ones.
God provided in ways that... take my breath away.
He put the most wonderful people in my life.
He taught me patience, mercy, forgiveness, and when to say enough.
He showed me how strong I am through him. Emotionally. Physically.
I have learned that I do in fact have a backbone.
I have learned that God is my ultimate rock.
I have learned that when everyone says "You can't" that is when I find the courage of "can."
I have learned that I am capable, strong, and resourceful.
I have learned that friends can come out of the craziest nights.
I have learned that anger and hurt are okay, but not to let them control me.
I have learned that letting go is easier said than done.
I have learned going on three dates back to back to back is a really stupid idea. (Granted it was an accident)
I have learned that memories are okay in moderation.
I have learned that I am beautiful.
I have learned I love the rain, but not four days of it.
I have learned that it doesn't HAVE to make sense.
I have learned that sometimes the unlikeliest of people will stick up for you.
I have learned that cooking for friends is good for the soul.
I have learned that what people think is only as important as you make it.
I have learned that adopted grandpa's are the best.
If I could put into words all this year has been I would say that it has been the most emotional, up/down, wonderful, enlightening, and eye opening year of my life.
I know a lot of people think me a bitch. (sorry for the language)
But you know. I have just learned that I only want certain people in my life, and that that is okay.
I know a lot of people think me aloof, and proud.
Honestly they just caught me at a later time of the day and I was exhausted.
I worked 4.5 jobs. I never want to do that again.
But God got me through.
I even made all A's except for that stupid 88%.
I also learned harder things about myself. Like that when I am done. And I have had enough. That after months and months of being walked all over... I tend to get a temper and explode. And it will be like this snap. I will be calme (too calm I am told) and then BOOM. I snap.
I need to work on that.
I learned that I don't NEED a guy. I have friends. Even new ones that have been... amazing. A blessing from God. I met them through sandwiches, odd little jokes, laughing in a theatre, while taking care of my trashed roommates, and the police... (Heh Heh still my favorite story ever). I cannot help but smile and honestly literally laugh out loud thinking of how I met my friends.
I also learned, I want someone. One day.
I dunno you guys. I am still learning about myself. I don't think I ever will stop finding out new things about myself.
I am becoming a real adult.
After this semester. I will be on the other side of the desk.
A true bona-fide teacher!
A translator maybe!
A homeschool coordinator/ teacher/ director for a neighborhhod!
A dance teacher!
I might even go into business!
The sky is the limit!
And even then the sky goes on into stars and infinite space!
I know I have become more domesticated. I love decorating the apartment. I love cooking, and sometimes I feel the NEED to just tidy things.
Still hate laundry though.
I don't think that will ever change.
Who actually likes laundry?
If you are a guy who likes laundry, email me.... just kidding.... but not really.
I stood in front of the mirror today and squinted in the mirror until I was all distorted.
Did you know that if you were to meet yourself on the street, you wouldn't recognize yourself.
This apparently is sort of proven by the fact that I have a "twin". Someone that people mistake us for the other girl. Someone actually wanted to know when Shannon got a twin. However, I don't see it. Even my DAD sees it. He asked why my face was on someone else's body.
Here is a picture of us:
We had fun with this.
Also do you see how curly my hair has gotten?! ( I am the one on the right by the way.)
Funny story. We didn't plan on wearing the same pair of jeans. Everything else was planned.
But other than our hair and our freakishly white skin tones... it's not much.
Wow this post is getting long. So let me wrap it up.
This year is the most remarkable year of my life. I learned a lot. I have more responsibilities than I thought I would at this time of my life. And I am so excited to see what God has in store for me this next year. 2016 is gonna be a great year!
How was your past year?
And I hope you all have a FABULOUS New Years! I will catch you all on the flip side! :D