Yesterday's post huh?
Am I having second thoughts about writing it?
Oh yeah.
Why?
Because... well...
It shows a lot of feels I keep to myself
But I am going to keep it up...
Even though part of me wants to take it down.
Why?
Because I want to be able to look back on it...
And remember it.
Remember exactly how I felt when it happened.
Is it scary to share how my feels are actually way more than I usually show?
Pfft.
Yes.
In fact.
There was this one time after Zac and I had been dating for about 6 months.
We had definitely gone past the "like" stage and into the "Love" stage for sure.
Like it wasn't even new at that point.
We had become comfortable and sure in that notion of Love.
Yet.
I was talking to someone about Zac.
And I was feeling myself become all melty and gooey...
So I said, "Yeah. You know. I like him."
And the person I was talking to, luckily, knew me well enough and responded with, "I should hope you Love him..."
And I blushed and said quietly, "I really do love him."
I am a total melty, gooey, soft person with this hard outer shell.
I try to pretend I am this tough person.
That I don't get all melty and gushy and am not a complete sap.
But the truth is.
I am a TOTAL sap.
In fact.
I am the gooiest of saps.
It's true.
But it still scares me to show that side of me.
Because for so long I wouldn't show that side of me.
I guess it is just another way that I have grown lately.
Anyways.
To all you secret saps out there.
I get you.
And to all you openly sappy people.
Stay that way.
Have a great day!