As I am sure you know...
It makes sense you know.
There was an interview up there...
So naturally....
I had to see my male-whom-I-am-fond-of.
There is one part that is always really hard
Like incredibly difficult
Practically impossible
and that is...
Saying farewell
Even when it is not for long periods of time.
We don't like it.
Never have.
Never will.
In fact we tend to linger.
Always have.
It's gotten worse now than before.
But we have always lingered.
Even before dating.
Hugs and sweet endearing looks.
That urge to kiss them...
(Naturally you can't)
(yet.)
But now.
Now that we ARE dating.
We do that lingering
In the parking lot.
Where we hold tight to one another.
That kind of hold tight where we try to soak up
every morsel of the hug that we can.
Hoping to memorize the feeling
Just so that we can close our eyes
And be right back in that embrace.
Distance is hard.
Then we kiss
In public.
GASP
That's right.
We kiss.
In.
Public.
But they are such sweet soft kisses.
As Louis Armstrong called them
"Kisses to build a dream on"
And we pray together.
That is my favorite part you know.
We talk to God together.
It's important.
It's really important.
God brought us together.
(I truly believe with all the random collisions that he "shipped" us)
I love it though.
The first time was kind of scary.
Because you are letting another in on your private conversations
With your Heavenly Father.
And yet...
It's so nice to have that.
And this time.
We realized with dread...
It's going to be almost a month.
Doesn't seem long does it?
I think the longest we ever went was 2 months.
Drove us crazy.
Lately...
It's been pretty consistent that I have gotten to see him.
So one month is SO LONG.
So naturally.
This realization makes us linger more.
Now.
He has this ring..
He has NEVER taken it off.
There was one point he wore it around his neck...
But he still had it on.
I mean he DOES NOT PART with this ring.
Sometimes if I am sitting right next to him,
he will let me slide it off his finger and fidget with it.
Otherwise.
Nope.
He doesn't take it off.
He got it in high school.
And while we were in the parking lot..
He takes it off his finger,
Gently places it in my hands
Tenderly curls my fingers closed around it.
He said words but my ears were buzzing with disbelief and just...
The happiest kind of shock.
The kind that makes your heart flutter.
So I have this ring now.
"OKay. That is sappy and all Emilie... What does that have to do with a boat?!"
Well.
Here in the tourist trap that I live in...
Tourist guys seem to think that local girls (or any girls) are there almost SPECIFICALLY to be hit on.
"It's a vacation brah!"
And their number one pick up line is,
"You wanna see my boat?!"
Not.
Even.
Kidding.
THAT is their pick up line.
And it is annoying.
So this weekend,
being Memorial Day Weekend
Was opening weekend for tourist season.
Now.
I got this new computer and I couldn't remember the password to the internet..
So I went over to Starbucks.
You know.
To get something cheap and mooch the wifi.
Like everyone else does too...
Anyways.
I am sitting there working on a blog
For on here
(Not this one, but one of my earlier ones)
I was also doing a little bit of real work.
Like school work stuff.
Anyways.
There was this guy sitting
Catty-cornered
to me.
And he is olderish
Like 40ish.
MAYBE late 30's.
Anyways.
He decided to strike up conversation.
Which was fine.
He did the usual asking of the good places around
And I gave him my opinions of the best restaurants.
And he laughs and says,
"Hahaha you should have just been my personal tour guide! Hardy har"
So, because I noticed he was not wearing a ring
(IT IS A WOMANS INSTINCT OKAY?!!!)
I concocted a little experiment in my head.
Now.
Zac's ring had been sitting on my first finger of my left hand.
That way it wouldn't slide off
Cause it is a little bit big.
So.
Under the table I switch the ring to the ring finger on my left hand.
I then said something about "my guy"
And I saw his eyes shift to my hand
He saw a ring.
Then he chuckled a bit and said, "Well, I got to be off."
It was CRAZY.
So I put a ring spacer on it and just decided to wear it on that finger
Why?
Because I don't get hit on if there is a ring.
Is that cheating?
Prolly....
I told Zac about it.
Asked if he was okay with it.
He said he was.
Which is GREAT!
Because that means there will DEFINITELY
AND I MEAN DEFINITELY
Be a decrease in the number of guys who ask me
"So... you wanna see my boat?"
And I am so excited for that prospect.
Anyways.
A little sap.
A little chuckle.
I hope you enjoyed this post.
Also.
I know I don't share a TON
with you all.
I am not even sure that I kept the post from our first kiss.
Why?
Because it is pretty personal.
Talking about fireworks
How the world completely changed.
How I was transported from the parking lot.
I am pretty sure there was music too.
It was a crazy kiss.
The kind that just sort of sticks with you.
The kind you see in movies.
And I am pretty sure I deleted that post.
But.
I like to write some of these sappy posts
The almost "TOO" personal posts.
Because I like to look back on these and see how things have progressed.
It is like little snippets into my past.
Ones that I don't journal about because I want to write them out fast.
Before I forget how exactly those butterflies fluttered.
I mean.
This man has this way of making me unable to think sometimes...
Like the first time he told me he loves me.
My response?
"Ditto"
That is not what I THOUGHT was going to come out of my mouth.
Or that time I dared him to eat the flower
And it was fake.
Or this time
When he gave me his ring to hold onto.
And I heard words in the moment. I think.
And I am sure I responded to those words...
But my ears were ringing
My heart was pounding.
It's amazing.
How much such a small act
Really truly means to me.
And gosh.
I love him.
I know I write this on every one...
But I am so THANKFUL that God put him in my life.
SO SO SO Thankful.
I love him bunches and bunches
Lots and lots.
Anyways.
That is MORE than enough ooey gooey sap for one night.
Goodnight dear readers.
I hope to have another topic for you soon!
God bless and sleep well!!