My anxiety was high.
I felt selfish because I know I am focusing more on baby and my needs.
I felt cranky and irritable for lots of dumb reasons.
And do you know what my husband did?
He talked to me.
We talked about things in our marriage.
I shared the deep, dark, and secret thoughts I've been having during the pregnancy.
And he just listened and loved me.
And held me.
He assured me when I stated my fears.
He assured me when I stated my doubts.
He trusted me enough to share his fears
He trusted me enough to share his feelings.
I know a lot of people don't feel marriage is necessary anymore.
But there is such a deep level of intimacy that is more than skin to skin contact that comes with marriage.
There is an emotional intimacy that binds us as well.
Things we would NEVER tell another human soul we tell each other.
I know he has made a life long commitment to me and he is not just going to say, "I don't like these feelings of yous" and leave me.
He is going to work with me. He is going to love me.
Marriage comes with a promise.
I know many people don't understand the DEPTH of that promise and marriages are tossed around like they are nothing.
But when you go into a marriage with the serious and life long intent to keep this covenant with each other and with God...
It is so beautiful.
It is so meaningful.
It brings so much peace and reassurance.
God made marriage.
He made it VERY good.