That was bitter and mopey.
Let me share some wins for today.
My kids were so overwhelmed and excited about my classroom decorations. They were bubbling with excitement and could not focus on reading. They were amazed I took so much time to decorate as much as I did.
I have a student who proudly makes 20% on their quizzes. They just don't care for school. Guess what?! Today. They made a 60%. DO YOU KNOW HOW PROUD I AM OF HIM!
My job is hard.
I knew that going in.
I did not realize how hard.
But every moment is worth it because... that student got a sixty.
I have a student who comes in every day and asks if it is going to be a good day. "Is is going to be a good day Miss Dodge?" And I say, "Today is going to be a GREAT day." And they smile and go, "good. I think so too." And walk out.
My job is worth it.
My job is worth the tears I cry. The fears I hide. The crankiness I shove deep within me on the drive in. It is worth every panicky flutter, and every hour I stay up late to make sure things are good.
My job is so fulfilling.
Yeah. It's stressful and I would be lying if I said I've never thought about a career change. But you know what. I could never see me doing anything else.
My kids are the brightest parts of my life. They do and say the sweetest things and half the time, I don't think they even realize they are doing it. They can be brutally honest, but in a way you know that is a good thing, because they feel comfortable enough to be themselves around you.
So am I exceptionally stressed out. I am exhausted, but you know what?! I got this. God's got this. (more importantly). It's gonna be a GREAT rest of the week.
Have a great rest of your week too.